It has been a long hiatus, but it has been done for a good reason. 

Anyhow, for any subscribers and followers out there: 

http://poeticsyncmage.blogspot.ca/

Is where I am at. So, follow me there if you want to know what has been up with my life lately. 

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To The Nice Guys

To every guy that’s said, “Sex can wait.”
To every guy that’s said, “You’re beautiful.”
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she’s sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that wasn’t just trying to get laid.
To every guy that actually listened.
To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in his face.
TO EVERY GUY THAT PRAYS THAT SHE IS HAPPY EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT WITH HER.

This one is for you…

Not all girls appreciate nice guys. There’s not many left out there….

I know I am remaining single. I made that choice a while back when I came upon this site: illuminatiMATRIX.wordpress.com…I don’t trust a relationship with any woman, or a relationship at all. I can’t handle it, and it is just not the right thing for me…I know – this is the most randomest post in the longest time – but, as usual, nothing new besides that link that has changed forever how I perceive this so-called, “3D” reality.

That is my 2-cents.

I am getting off of Xanga for a whlie because I don’t have anything new to add to my site – at least this one for now. However, I will be posting at comments sections and who knows when I will be back in action again?

Anyhow – I am not getting off blogging per se. Just Xanga.

For those of you who want to read my other blogs see:

http://media-accountability.blogspot.com/

http://sacredsynchromysticshamanism.blogspot.com/

http://modernmysticmysteries.blogspot.com/

http://objective-political-analysis.blogspot.com/

http://meta-fiction1111.blogspot.com/

http://science-spirituality-synthesis.blogspot.com/

Enjoy and peace out!

Xinyu Hu

From this day onward, there is still 1111 days till Decembe 21, 2012, 11:11 UTC.

Hope we all live to see that day.

12/06/2009 = 9/11

12/08/2009 = 11/11

11/09/2009 = 11/11

Where do you think you’d be? Are you ready? Do you believe?

These are my rules regarding how my future girlfriend/fiance/wife should treat me:

1. No cheating
2. No bitching
3. No wasting my money if she is rich enough already to afford everything she can possibly get for herself
4. No fucking around with other guys
5. No bullshitting
6. No lying to her parents, or manipulating other people, including myself
7. Has had no more than 1 or even no boyfriend in the past
8. Is understanding
9. Is loyal
10. Is trustworthy
11. Is committed for the long term, not just another random, “fling.”

If a girl cannot fit any of these criteria, they are not worth my time.

In regard to myself:

1. Be less of a jerk
2. Be loving
3. Be understanding
4. Less defensive…(it depends)
5. Be more sympathetic
6. Play hard to get
7. Be a nerd
8. Be more socially active…somehow (vague, but, meh)
9. Be more cautious of who I can actually trust
10. Challenge a bitchy girlfriend should I do find one…that is actually bitchy
11. Do not let myself to be taken advantage of, cheated on, manipulated, or given an ultimatum by a girl. Be assertive.

My rules and her rules are simple. K.I.S.S.

So, I just got one of my articles featured on datingish…and it looks like 99% of the readers never got the message about the relationship between language and how we perceive reality. Common sense, logic, and reasoning has been cast aside for, “political correctness” because nobody wants to offend anyone. Yeah, “it is a crime to offend people now!” That is right – that is the perception I got from most of the commentators after my article got published.

People were like, “what is wrong with the term, ‘significant other?’” even when I provided them the answer in plain sight near the end of my essay. It does not take a freaking genius to figure out how stupid, dumb, and pathetic political correctness has become. They are literally blind to my last few sentences. My last few sentences were the answers to all of their comments and questions.

However, I did sort of like the British term for lover: partner! It is somewhat more accurate, and more precise, although one concern of mine is how it fails to define which gender the partner is…

So, my over all analysis of the comments? I was somewhat disappointed at the general response. Most people are just blind, and stupid to the obvious answers in my last blog.

Screw Political Correctness!

P.S. If you feel offended, too bad. This is a free country, after all, right?

You all heard that saying, “significant other,” well, my question is - which other? I know a lot of, “other” people aside from myself, but which others? And how are those, “others,” “significant?” if neither, “significant,” nor, “other” are defined?

Well, I suppose then all my teachers I have ever had are my, “significant others” because well, they are others, and they were significant, or are significant because they teach me stuff. Isn’t that legitimate enough?

So, what is wrong with calling the person you love, the person you are actually in a relationship with, “lovers?” Or, some other love-related term, like, “my babe…” or, “my sweetheart…” or, “my boyfriend/girlfriend…” Are not those terms more accurate and precise? I mean, what makes, “others” so, “significant,” that we fail to define exactly what either of those two words in the phrase mean?

Is love so forbidden and unmentionable, even embarrassing that we resort to such silly terms like, “significant other?” Are we so immature and childish we need to take away the, “offensiveness” of love itself? What if one day, hypothetically, love is no longer called, “love?” Instead, it is called, “sudden plusgood emotional outpourings?” That is right, “sudden plusgood emotional outpourings!” And what about the term, “couple?” Well, we can easily make that term more politically correct by saying it is simply a, “strong comradeship” could we not? And how about the term, “sex” (the act) – “semi-automatic-manual double production!” And what about sex, the biological term itself, “manufactured external-internal production mechanism!” How about a politically correct term for, “marriage:” Permanent unpaid contract! Also – how about a politically correct term for the word, “family?”: collective common comradeship! How about a term for romance too – because in the future, we may not want to be offensive to women, since romance implies something to do with men instead of women: mechanical stimulation and simulacrum! How about a term for break-up, and being dumped? Ungood comrade communication syndrome! And courtship…dating? Camaraderie bondship! How about, “making out?” doubleplusgood surplus mechanical interaction!

At what point does any and all political correctness just become a form of manual, monotone language – devoid of emotions, feelings, and life itself? Imagine – language devoid of meaning, essence, truth, and honesty.

My point is, this whole political correctness thing in regard to love, relationships, and marriage is taking away the life out of life, and the love out of love, and the relationship out of relationships.

What do you, my dear readers think? Has this whole, “significant other” thing gone too far? And should we just call each other what we really are when we are in a relationship – girlfriend, boyfriend, lover, etc?

Why do we have this politically correct term in regard to to “love?”  

Thank you

Now, this is going to be weird, but last night, for some odd reason or another, I had a strange dream about my ex…again. This is like the third time or something I have had a dream about my ex…and she keep on bothering me on a psychological and psychic level…and so, I need some answers. That is why I am writing this entry…to find some possible answers about my state of mind…and my psychic state…because I do not really know what is going on here…any and all advise would be helpful…including interpretations…

Well, basically, the dream goes like this:

The first dream started with her Xanga being reactivated again. So, it was kind of weird…and I don’t know how that happened…then, suddenly this shit happened…For no reason whatsoever, I don’t know how or why, me and my ex just happened to ge together again, and we seem to be having fun like the way we used to…talking, sharing, and discussing good old days…at least, that is what it felt like. She looked beautiful in that dream last night, and I don’t even feel weird when I was with her…everything was normal. It was a sunny day in that dream too. I felt normal, although right afterwards, I felt weird. I was talking with her normally, like I always used to. I wasn’t angry either. I was just having a causal talk with her…and then, she was talking to me about all the good stuff in her life, and we were having the time of our lives. We were smiling too. We were also pretty close. Then, somehow, gradually, the dream faded away…and that was last night.

My other dream was not like this – in the other one, my ex was stalking me. She told me to meet up with her in her neighborhood. I went, but then as I was walking along the dark street, I saw her dad’s car, and she apparently brought some other people along too, to apparently, “convince” me that I had to go to see her. I was weirded out, and freaked out. So, I ran away, and walked away from the situation. Then, that was the end of that one…as creepy and stalkish as that one was…

Then, the one that was so long ago…that one took place while she, my ex was emotionally and physically torturing me…or both. I don’t know what happened, but as we were talking, I felt like I was being mutilated even cut open inside out…it was a strange feeling. It felt painful too. I did not understand what was happening, but I knew that in that dream, or nightmare, I was hurt, angry, and frustrated at her. She was evil in that dream. She was shouting at me, and acted like some kind of psychotic, mindless bitch from Hell. She was never what I ever anticipated her to be. She justified her action in that dream by saying she was better than me or something, or that her interests were above all others. I was angry, and hurt…emotionally and physically by the vicious energy of the attack. I was basically psychically assaulted by me ex. I didn’t understand. The last thing I said to her in despair and agony was, “How could you do this to me???” This dream took place just before I spoke to her again on February 2, 2009 for the last time. On the 33rd day of the year…the day of shadows and rebirth…apparently.

So, I ask my dear readers…what is the meaning of all these dreams? My memories may have been messed up a little, but based on whatever I remembered…what does it all mean? I don’t mind sharing by the way…it helps me clear up the mess and the chaos…so, an explanation anyone?

Thanks

Xinyu Hu

P.S. Me and my ex broke up over the fact she cheated on me (my POV), and she has since then, called me evil, and a faggot. She chose to fuck someone else after we fucked within 24 hours. She called it casual sex when I asked her about it, and she said she’ll never speak to me again because of it. The break up took place at the end of October 2008, and was formally over by December 27. I tried to salvage it again on February 2nd. The friendship between me and my ex lasted for 3 years and 3 months in total. Five months before she gone out with someone else, we broke up. Then, for five months, we did the “friends with benefit thing.” We started going out in January, and ended in May of 2008. Just some background information. And yes, I became really angry and ticked off after she started dating some new guy she met on a bus to school one day. This is all necessary background information for you to analyze the dreams and if possible, tell me what the heck do they mean exactly. And yeah, I am a single child. Lonely, and it sucks.

Thank you.