March 25, 2009

  • Life and the Chaos Surrounding it...

    It has been a really long time since I last updated this blog...my last one was about about my now-and-forever gone best friend who has ceased to exist in my memory and my records...

    What one says has little bearing, unless one means it by doing what one says...so, for all you girls who think you can cheat and get away with it - NO, I don't think so.

    What is it with women these days? Especially those women who think they have everything they could possibly have and yet still want more? What is it with girls these days and their desperation for hunting for some random boyfriend whom they can take advantage of? How come her cronies did not ask about my side of the story about what happened between us? Simple - all those other guys are under her control, and would not dare step out bounds, knowing that she too can break up with them...whether in a relationship or not is unimportant.

    Oh well, regardless...

    For me, personally, after two months of feeling mad everyday...I say - there are tons of hot chicks out there - why the fuck I allow myself to be manipulated by you?

    I am not evil or bad, or crue or anything...my words of revenge and bloodlust serve only to perpetuate or at least - delay the inevitable...or perhaps - accelerate it. I do not actually hate that other guy - I just don't like what you have done to me...and in that anger - I had to displace it to your random boyfriend whose just as stupid as anyone else to try to enter into your life...because no matter who enters your life - you see absolutely no reason whatsoever to change your attitude towards love itself...

    I always live by my principles, and people are my concern for as long as they live by the same principles I live by - but, if they step out of those precious values and morales, they are out of my life for good. Cheating on me is one of those things that is out of bounds with my principle. That is an act that totally unforgiveable even if you come to me years from now to ask for it. It cannot be given - you must earn it back.

    It is not so much what is said that concerns - but what was done and is done about it.

    Your actions and words do not match, and as such, is a waste of effort and time to be with you any longer.

    As far as I am concerned - regarding my present and future - I can find some other girl that is way hotter, beautiful and sincere, if not honest about herself than you ever will be. Just watch.

    You are not my best friend any more. I broke too much of my heart over you, and yet you repaid it back in betrayal and treason.

    Yours, looking to the future

     

     

    Xinyu Hu