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http://lordxyz112233.blogspot.com/

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Please

Xinyu Hu

FACE IT. Life is not perfect. Nobody is perfect on this planet. And usally, what humanity tries to avoid the most is also what is staring at them right in the face. Hence - FACE IT.

We all have challenges and endevours to overcome. Therefore, me and my counsellor (thanks to littleprofessor for the name of the club for Asperger's and everyone else)...have formed Friends Accepting Challenges and Endevouring to Improve Themselves. Face it.

The first objective of the group of 7 (funny, reminds me of G7, and the number of letters in my name)...is to teach the faculty of my college about Asperges/Autism.

I love it. I am pretty much the host and de facto President of the group because I have the ability to create effective PowerPoint Presentations, and host the group of 7 people (6 guys and 1 girl). I look forward to teaching faculty. I am proud of the group because of its potential. I am generally speaking...happy today.

I really want to get to know more people and make my life of fame/infamy. I have great ambition. Why should I bother to hide it? I have no need to bullshit anyone. Last I checked, I hated BULLSHIT. Still do.

Which ultimately leads us back to both the beginning and the end of this entry...Face It.

(in fact, me and the group made a random joke about Face It as Face Information Technology) - [ironic, most of the people in the group are doing programming, computer related IT kind of work..- and Aspergers is technically very difficult to understand]...

So, I ask my fellow readers...any advise for the challenges and endevours ahead?

  Cascada - Evacuate the Dance Floor

Turn up the music
Let's get out on the floor
I like to move it
Come and give me some more
Watch me gettin' physical
Out of control
There's people watchin' me
I never miss a beat

Steal the night
Kill the lights
Feel it under your skin
Time is right
Keep it tight
Cause it's pulling you in
Wrap it up
Can't stop cause it feels like an overdose
(Feels like an overdose)

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

My body's aching
System overload
Temperatures rising
I'm about to explode
Watch me I'm intoxicating taking the show
It's got me hypnotized
Everybody step aside

Steal the night
Kill the lights
Feel it under your skin
Time is right
Keep it tight
Cause it's pulling you in
Wrap it up
Can't stop cause it feels like an overdose
(Feels like an overdose)

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

Come on and evacuate
Feel the club is heating up
Move on and accelerate
Push it to the top
Come on and evacuate
Feel the club is heating up
Move on and accelerate
You don't have to be afraid

Now guess who's back with a brand new track
That got everybody in the club going mad
So everybody in the back
Get your back up on the wall and just shake that thang
Go crazy, yo lady, yo baby
Let me see you wreck that thang
And drop it down low, low
Let me see you take it to the dancefloor, yo

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Everybody in the club
I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

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Now, I love the above song above...it is so...how do you say it? Jittery and fun...even though the dance floor is being evacuated. First of all, I have never really danced with a girl..."properly." I danced with a girl - once...but I don't consider that one as "dancing" because I didn't really know her that well...and plus...it was when I was in junior high...so I was STUPID for trying.

I have never been a party goer, and to me...parties are worth doing because even though I am a nerd, I am open to social engagements that are not too rowdy and out of control. It would be interesting perhaps to see a party queen come out one day randomly...but that is really not my thing. I just want to try the atmosphere. I am a late learner...I know.

Any suggestions?

Thanks

Xinyu Hu

Today is the 5th of November...a revolutionary date.

I have done some pretty atrocious things to authority these days...like testing the waters of authority, power, and those who have just way too much power over me...personally.

Today is also the one year one week after me and my best friend met for the second last time. Today is the day that I got banned forever from a forum that has been a part of my burdensome life for the past year...because I constantly defied authority...kind of sad I know...but who cares right?

I always defy authority, and today was the day when I pushed it to the extreme. I consider myself a realist, even when I am clearly idealistic, and not realistic. I always wanted to consider myself to be the best...or the greatest. I have been having such a low self-esteem lately that I have destroyed and caused quite a mess in society as a whole. My political views are radical, but I stand by them because they are right.

Hence, I am really no different than a "terrorist." But, do I care? No.

I am a terrorist of freedom and I am proud of it.

I enjoy controversy and being a pain in the ass for society. I like it because it allows me to engage with other people. I have been a loner for so long, so, I figure, causing trouble is a fun and very creative way of doing things. After all, I do have all this free time.

One of the most recent set of troubles I have run into includes facing my teachers about how they teach something, and a gang of students who absolutely hate me because I speak my mind. I have to speak my mind to someone, somewhere...right

After all, if you are fucking lonely, bored, and have been ticked off so much in the past two years...what the fuck should anyone expect? That you should just caually forget about all the terrrible, shameful, embarassing moments of your pitiful life? Of course not. I remember all my sins, my crimes, and my atrocities on a psychological level. Recently, just within the past 24 hours I nearly got into shit the college and the Associate Dean for something I did nearly a month ago. Geezes. Give me a break. I just want to feel like I am ALIVE. So, I use my passions and my obsessions to catalyze and create that momentum of "life."

In my personal relationship life...I have no relationship. I have been single for a year already. I am not available right now though ladies...not yet. I am too fucking busy making a life of fame and infamy for myself and othes to even get a relationship. I hardly even have a relationship with myself...(well, I do - it is just unstable)...so how could I possibly bother having another relationship with another woman? Screw that.

Call me an asshole. I am proud of it....for now.

This is a random post (again) of America's history of the most (you got it) random wars against anything and everything, from present to past (top-down):

Unstated, but real wars:

EDIT:

- War on Germs - "cleanliness" fear of bacteria...war with the microscopic world...

- War on "Christmas" - Bill O'Reily's infamous war that has been declared by the atheist on Christians...as if tradition cannot possibly get any worse...

- Lou Dobb's "War on the Middle Class" - essentially, the Middle Class is being rooted out by both political parties...doesn't matter who you vote for boys...it is all the same guys...

- War on Energy (war for oil) [it is America's moral duty to secure energy, even if there is plenty for everyone] - "Peak Oil" sounds a lot like "Big Shit"

- War on language and sincerity [political correctness to correct "offensive" speech] - Americans have no right be offended by those bigots out there who despise our freedoms...

- War to "Save the Planet" - another greedy corporate attempt by the globalist to expand their reach to include taxing people for their, "pollution"

- War on Racism - civil rights is GOOD, but there is a point where it infringes on more essential issues of FREE SPEECH

- War on Specism - "humans are equivalent to the vermin they kill for survival" (thanks to Disney Corporation and its gang of media moguls)

- War on Chauvinism - thanks to Feminism, now men have "less" rights lest they be perceived to as sexist

- War on Freedom and Your Constitution (through the war on terror)

- Cold War (a nice way of saying a peaceful war or a warring peace)

- War on the Mind (we have to prevent crime before it happens, so, give us power or give us your Constitution)

- War on Cyberspace (there might be terrorists out there you know...)

[Future war - War against the Sky {from Arthur C Clarke's Time's Eye Trilogy}- it is not enough to be at war on earth, we need to fight against the heavens (aliens, pesky foreign species that invade America's corporate mafia's "interests")]

- War on Swine Flu (or, generally speaking, since the coming of vaccines, the war against flu and anything that might make you sick)

- War on Terror (still no end in sight - at home or abroad. War is already terrifying enough, why are we making more terror to end terror??? [logical fallacy])

- War on Drugs (still on, I assume?)

- War on Cancer (well, we gave up that one a long time ago...)

- War on "Poverty" (if war is profitable, shouldn't there be less poverty?)

- War on Crime (criminals are like a foreign, invisible enemy in our midst that we must crush with the use of militant paramilitary squads of other criminals who are better off - we don't like competition)

- World War II and World War I (two great opportunities for our Corporate American thugs to loot, rape, and strip the world clean of "Germ"ans and other vermin)

- American Civil War (that is right, we shoot each other out of "respect" over the whole "slavery" business)

- EDIT: America's Southern States right to abdicate from the Federal Government (oooopps. after one hundred year or so, we seem to have forgotten the right of every state to leave the Union, and be free from the ever more dictatorial federal government)

- American Philipine War (why should we bother living with Filipino's? White Pride World Wide)

- Mormon Conflict (we needed some target practise - those stupid Mormons over there look tasty)

- American Spanish War (Spaniards are annoying - let us bomb the shit out of them too - for fun!)

- American Mexican War (Mexicans produce good tacos, but when it comes the LAND, we own it because it is God given to America the Great)

- American Indian War (indians are savages, brutes, and merciless killing machines - we just happen to be more organized and "civilized" in our way of life)

- American War of Independence (we wanted to be independent because we own slaves, and they don't - those stupid British anglophiles!)

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As the famous George Carlin once said in his famous comic routines - YOU GIVE US A COLOR AND WE'LL WIPE IT OUT!!!!

EDIT Ideas courtesy of littleprofessor@xanga.com