888 - that is what this year is going to be - hopefully. There will be great joy and happiness this year - a lot of shit has happened in the year 2007 that I can't help but still remember. Oh well - I think that 2008 will be a great year - for me, for everyone. Mostly I guess is because of the 08 Olympics in Beijing. I guess that makes me proud of my country, and my place of birth - hence, optimism for the year in general.

Looking back at 2007 - what I remember most was all the shit that me and my friend gone through with the school - all the times that I have cried, and sobbed in tears (while watching Avatar - one of the best and deepest episodes that I could really connect to) - over all, 2007 has been a bloody, sad, miserable, depressing year - but the results were all worth it. I learnt about how fucked, and how much bullshit I have been living in all of my life (or, for that matter - most of it has been in denial, bullshit, or just shit). Now - what we did during school time with the postings - I have no regrets, and I have no intention of feeling miserable about it, in fact, I am fucking damn proud of it. It is one of the things that I would like to tell my kids (if I ever do, which I know I won't). I cried so much in one year I can't seem to contemplate it all - it was beautiful, it was disastrious. It was just itself. I learnt so much more after dropping out of university - about myself, and about the world in general (although I have since I not having TV or internet adapted to new ways of doing things). I have become so disconnected with my laptop and all the crazy technology of my dreams that I sometimes - most of the times - forget that I even want it, or have it, or even my feelings towards it, and my desperation to have back my laptop. It is like I live in another world altogether - disconnected, and unplugged from technology and materialism - it is like I am virtually surreal.

Now - back to the topic of the school postings nearly seven months ago - yeah, I am proud of it, and I live in pride of it, because it was a lovely moment of my life - a moment to be cherished and valued. It was a change of heart from conformity to courage, from obedience to independence and true liberty (not just saying and writing something but also DOING something about it). I feel and think that my life has become 333% more freer, more independent, more self-reliant, self-reflective, and self-enlightening than when I was in school. I will not live in a world where control, conformity, censorship and moralism that is based on pure hypocricy and power-grabbing takes place. All I need now in 2008 is to LOVE MYSELF more or less than I did last year and to spread that LOVE. Infinite Love is the Only Truth - Everything Else is Delusion as David Icke wrote in his book by the same title. It is NOT about how much, "conspiracy theory knowledge" I know - but how I know I can escape from the conspiracy by the Elitists in the first place. The best and most effective way to free the world is to teach yourself how to free yourself, then teach others how to teach themselves to free themselves. Then, only then will we be able to evolve spiritually and escape this spiritual-material matrix that is a prison for our infinite consciousness and unconsciousness. Love is what we are, and Fear is what the Controllers want. Fear is what keeps us all in line - but Love is what can make us, US. We just are who we are regardless of the label that I put on myself, you, or the planet. We have no labels - labels and categorization is merely a prison-warder conscious activity - whether we are aware of it or not. We are who we are, and I am who I am - and nothing can change that UNLESS my THOUGHTS wants to change. We are here to help one another to help ourselves in order to continue helping one another - that is not selfish, that is SELFLESS - but we got to evolve together or we will never evolve at all.

We must avoid self-destruction - that is not SELFLESSNESS. We must also avoid self-abasement as that is what SELFISHNESS is all about. While we ought to take care of ourselves - we should also take care of others.

Infinite Love

This is the Road to Truth and Liberty - it is a choice I leave up to you.

Want more? Here it comes Dorothy because Kansas is going Bye Bye.  

 This is a warning - learn from it, study it, understand it, and see it for yourself. Open your eyes people - time is running out. The rest I leave up to you.

 Yours, <333

XINYU HU

We are all approaching End Game in this war against the Illuminati, or the Global Elite. We got only 5 years starting today. Take it or leave it. This is your life. Choice.

Every single person on this planet starting tomorrow will have only five years to determine whether they want to be slaves or be free men and women. It is a choice. Your choice.

At the stroke of midnight - December 21st, 2012, is our shatterpoint. The Old World will end, and the New World will begin. It is a problem of choice. This is your Self. Choice.

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This is no conspiracy - it is right where you are - invisibly visible.

As Neo stated to the System in the end of The Matrix, I am not here to tell you all how to live your lives, or how this game will end, I am here to show you all how it will begin - I am going to show you all a world without rules, borders or boundaries - a world, where everything is possible, and anything is possible. A world without control, a world without conformity - a world without censorship - we can only live peacefully and lovingly in a world where opinions are not crimes, and where freedom reigns.

I respect any of you all to disagree with me, but I will defend to the death your right to disagree because fighting amongst ourselves is what the Elite wants. Divide and Conquer. Thesis - Antithesis. Then --- Synthesis.

 I give a fuck about you all - every single one of you - no matter if you don't give a fuck or just want to avoid giving a fuck about the Truth, Liberty, and Justice.

Open your Mind. Open your Eyes. Open your Heart.

Open your ears.

The solution to all these is simply Love itself. Love is what we are, and Love is what we will all become.

 Know Thy Self.

Know Thy Enemy.

 Only then will thou be victorious in every battle.

Red or Blue?

Your Choice...

So, after watching a youtube video on the Bilderberg Group, an infamous hardly known club of industrial barons, world leaders, military and social elitists, big business and big oil interests, international financiers, Presidents, Prime Ministers, members of royalty, and big crime bosses from all over the world - 120 in total actually - I hear that these rich motherfuckers, cocksuckers, losers, and control freaks who are so freaking bossy and controlling are willing to kill us at the expense of whatever it takes.

There is no environmental issue - it is all about control. The planet is warming up because of the SUN - the sun is growing brighter, hotter, and bigger - that is why every planet including our own in the solar system are warming up. Some of the moons of Saturn and Jupiter have turned into liquid, and to say that it is due to carbon dioxide from human industry is really a cloak to shield the real intention of the agenda: TO CONTROL YOU.

There is no AIDS, no HIV, no dangerous pandemic - they are all human creations financed by the scientists or eugenics at the top. These people are Malthus, Darwin (you guessed it), Huxley (wtf?), Orwell (you should not be surprised, he is a socialist, communist), Bertrand Russell (???? I know), H G Wells (what? Yeah, that is right - see for yourselves at any research site)....and what is their ultimate purpose? To get rid of the population of the planet by any means that are considered by the ruling elite as, "undesirable" - that includes Asians, people with, "low test scores," people who are so called, "related to an ancestor that has committed a crime," "blacks," "poor people, cripples, anyone whose fucked up mentally and spiritually." And what is their strategy of getting rid of 95% of the population of the planet? Wars, deliberate food shortages, rationing, pandemic, illnesses, tyranny and setting up of dictatorships all across the world. Their main think tank of control is through the Club of Rome, and China is their testing ground where Chinese people are used as guinea pigs in their racial and social extermination projects. In fact David Rockefeller encourages the death of millions of people world wide to spread the doctrine of eugenics, social engineering control, racial cleansing, and pretty much the rise of a world police-state.  

There is no food shortage - there is plenty of food to feed the entire planet but royalty, the elites, and the ruling class have no interest in what is good for us - they are only interested in producing problems so then they can reduce the population of the world by 95% by the year 2020.

There is no, "war on terror," this is just a cloak to conceal the real agenda: to take control of your civil liberties, and to destroy your individuality, your sovereignty, and dehumanize you to the point where you are ignorant, willfully dumbed down, obedient, stressed, incapable of critical thinking, and a walking, living zombie. That is why drugs are so useful - all kinds of antidepressants are encouraged by big pharmaceutical cartels and drug rings to get you where they want you to be: in a perpertual state of servitude, slavery, and serfdom to them: The Global Elite.

This world is ruled by a gang of ruthless, heartless, merciless, soulless zombies who really want to rule the world and bind it to their bidding. Their One Ring is the Committee of 300 and all the big government agencies controlled by even bigger government agencies to run the planet and make all the important decisions, and exterminate anyone that dares to disagree. Our hope is to love one another and to open our eyes to the Truth. We must love one another - that is the first step. We must protest, challenge government and demand back our civil liberties. The right to bear arms against our tyrants and those who want to push us into the, "postindustrial" really, "post-human" age must be defeated. They do not negotiate and talk to us - they only conceal and bury their agenda down in the shadows where almost nobody notices them; but now they are bringing that goal of One World Government right out in the open, and they are happy to do so - because they already are dictators, tyrants, and mercenaries seeking profit and power through the destruction and carnage of human lives.

I say, people of the world, people just like me and just like you; we have to unite and destroy the Global Elite and their agenda but before we do that we must save ourselves from being enslaved by THEM, and their agenda - but also our dark selves. We must be free from our own slavery, our own death camp, our own concentration camp of conformity, obedience, and utter destruction of individuals and entire races of humans.

The real solution to our worldly and personal problems is simply just Love itself. It is our new hope if only we knew how to get it, attain it, and keep it for ever.

A New Hope lies within you, and within all of us.

Yours,  infinite Love for infinite Truth and infinite Enlightenment

XINYU HU

P.S. I love you Lady of Flowers

Today is after the 22nd of November - the first unofficial day of Winter...but I do know that yesterday was the day that John F. Kennedy was assassinated, almost 30 years ago yesterday (now one of my heroes and role models - like Neo, Aang, Tinamou, Abraham Lincoln, Lady)...these guys and gals are the Suns, the Stars, the Skies, and the Spirits of my life...because well - they're my role models. If Superman does not work, then well, I can at least always find one other hero. In other words; I think I have many flowers of hope and inspiration to live by.

Today I visited John Fraser - because I felt that after yesterday the signs were all set and the past can be revisited (333 *3), reexperienced, and reanalyzed. I think after going through 99% of the building - memories came flashing back into my mind - the days of loneliness - the anxiety, the feeling of being bonded in slavery, the feeling of hope and love, despair and perseverance at the same time - the jealousy, the hatred, the cynical jokes, the memories - and of course - you Lady. I remember when I stalked so many women - HOLY...SHIT! Man - now that I look back at that part I can't help but laugh at myself - yet it is not a laugh of hatred towards myself - because through visiting the school and (gettting my diploma, yes I did get it) talking to many of the old teachers I have had - I have come to appreciate and realize that the past is just that: the Past. I can't change it - I can only reexperience those feelings at every corner I turn, and every step I take. I was hoping however to find out whether or not my old guidance counselor had done much reading of the quotes that I made up and the theses that I came up with during the fiasco nearly eight months ago. I need to still ask them that on March 3, 2008 - that is my next planned visit. I could not help but also remember the days of loneliness and titanic struggles between me and the school - I am still somewhat angry at that - but now - most of it has been soothed and I FORGIVE MYSELF (hence releasing myself from the prison I set up for my mind) for what happened - I did what I did and that was what I did and no more, no less. When I took the Red Pill metaphorically and allegorically in Grade 10 due to my curiosity of the esoteric and dark secrets of rock music (I was depressed - no friends, no hope, no life), I didn't know what I was getting myself into - but now I understand; the same reason why Neo took the Red Pill:

"As soon as men decide that all means are permitted to fight an evil, then their good becomes indistinguishable from the evil that they set out to destroy. The subordination of morals to politics, the reign of terror and the technique of propaganda and psychological aggression can be used by any power or party that is bold enough to abandon moral scruples [and] plunge into the abyss." - Christopher Dawson, The Judgement of Nations (courtesy of UnitG24, Ghost 9, Gabriel Ho).

...To basically at the most basic fundamental level of psychology, politics, and philosophy; avoid hypocrisy and never turn out to the be the evil of this world that I swore after I discover the truth to become. I vow to never become the evil that I have discovered in this world. I swear an oath of allegiance to the defense of liberty, the protection of human rights, and an end to the black and grey propaganda machine that runs this world.

Way back when I, "stalked" the girl of my dreams - well, that was just due to my immaturity and I guess - attachment to her. But now that she is back in my life after we resolved our issues, and although I still love her dearly - I HAVE CHANGED. I have punished myself, disciplined myself, learnt tolerance, and hopefully achieved the next paradigm shift in my life, and taught myself that stalking is a notorious thing - so, I never did that again, and I assure you - Lady - you are The Love of My Life - The One for me. I learnt a lot today - I have come to accept the past, lived with it, and understood why I did what I did. I pretty much all I had to do was walk through the hallways, the corridors, the boulevards of broken dreams, the offices, the cubicles, the library to realize that I am just who I am no matter how much shit had happened in my life: I have changed and so has the world. 

Today, I feel a big burden has been lifted out of me, and I can now well - LIVE. Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance; Xinyu - remember this and everything else will eventually fall into place. Funny enough - I did not stutter ONCE while I spoke with any of my teachers (just nervous I guess because I have not spoken to them for a very long time)...Today is a new day - that is why the skies are clear, the snow is white, and my past can now cuddle away safely in where it belongs: never suppressed, never oppressed, and never repressed from my memory - always a part of me and who I am. I feel so much happier and cheerful after this visit (the only thing though that disappoints me is my old guidance counselor prying into my life after school, and urging me to go back to University - yeah right, in your dreams Phemister). I hate it when people know where I am - I just want to remain invisible, nonexistent, imaginary, and a ghost to the world - I don't exist. You never read this anywhere. You never know me - because I am merely vapor - vanished into the stratosphere.

As far as I am concerned; I can now live in peace within myself, and with the world (it must be implemented IMMEDIATELY). And - Lady, I think you have made a believer out of me (as in believe in God-given Wisdom of the Ages).

Thank God, the numbers worked out, and the symbolism all matched; the goal has been accomplished.  

333, 3330, 3:33.

11/22 = 33.

Everything went by the numbers. By March 3, it too will go by the numbers. The symbols of snow, clear skies were legilimate reasons for me to do what I had to do today, and I can assure you - logic and feeling were happy with it, then so am I.       

Yours, infinite love for infinite enlightenment for infinite truth

XINYU HU

P.S. We live in a mediocre world, we must be anything but medium.

Some quotes that I need to keep in mind:

We must either live together as brothers [and sisters] or perish together as fools. - Reverand Martin Luther King Jr.

To forgive yourself is to set yourself free from your own prison. - quote source unknown

The moment you own up to your past is the moment when everything is enlightened, and everything has been set into place. - XINYU HU

More words of Wisdom (link)

The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy. But when you're inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy. You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it. - Morpheus to Neo while in the Simulated Matrix World during the Training Program.

The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
- Morpehus to Neo while in the Matrix.

I didn't say it would be easy Neo. I just said that it would be the truth. - Morpheus to Neo after his first Training Program in the Matrix Simulation.

This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes. - Morpheus to Neo; Blue Pill Ignorance or Red Pill Enlightenment.

That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind. - Morpheus to Neo explaining to Neo the nature of the Matrix - but far from it.

I have done more than just stopped to smell the roses. Every rose I have smelt, I have picked from its roots and now I carry a bunch of them with me, every step I take on this journey called life. I feel them, sometimes prick my fingers upon the thorns of their stems. I'll die when I can no longer carry any more roses; by then, I will have experienced an abundance to last me longer than eternity or all that the afterlife has to offer.

I think it is my time to do some more self-reflection. I needed to copy and paste this quote from my best friend's site (link)- it was and still is tempting. Need time to think. Thank God though she is The Lady of Flowers and this Universe has plenty of flowers (actually infinite; I think) - the galaxies, the solar systems, the suns, the moons, the stars...and each individual planet. I guess I am just an idealist - but I strive to be more REAL. Realism plus Idealism = [I am not sure, but GOD, selflessness perhaps]. Now just got to fulfill my own destiny and my own potential as Ares - Mars, Saturn, Pluto...help those in need, and liberate the world from eternal, perpertual, unholy slavery from the System Masters...the Global Elite, the Illuminati, the Esoteric Secret Societies - but first - I must end the conspiracy WITHIN myself fully and utterly. Only then, ONLY THEN will all conspiracies, wars, and endless torture, betrayal, vaporization, and destruction end. It all begins within - with The God that is all within us. Thank God for The One - The Lady of Flower with The Ancient Heart of the Universe...humility, patience, perseverance, wisdom, courage, compassion, truth, love, understanding, discpline, self-actualization, Enlightenment. Wake UP and SEE THE LIGHT. I PROMISE THIS TO MYSELF.

Yours, love, XINYU HU

P.S.

If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change. - Buddha.

That flower is the universe, that flower is The Rose (red, white, black, pink, any color you wish) - and that flower is God, and that flower is right within each one of us - with You, with Me, within US - within the Lady of Flowers and each individual. Let us hope that God gave me enough of it.

I realize that I give my friend too much credit for teaching me so much...so now, I have to return the favor to the source of all wisdom, insight, intellect, and enlightenment: God. And apologies for anyone who may feel insulted by yesterday's post - that was just some opinion and er...well - thoughts of mine. But I guess God speaks to us differently - so my little voice in my head is either fucked or is missing something. I think I know what I may be missing a lot of these days: TIME TO THINK. I am always working, working, WORKING. Fuck - at this rate I'd rather be a fucking exile in my own home country or whatever you want to call it. I NEED TIME TO THINK, to REFLECT, and seek enlightenment without all this stupid work hassle in my way. It is annoying, it is bothersome, and it sucks. I'd rather be homeless than work all my fucking life - but still, got obligations to attend to and can't break any promises - just frustrated. Hopefully God can make me sick or something so then I don't have to go to work too often and can actually have time to think.

By and by - High School - John Fraser - fuck my diploma. I don't care if you burn it, tear it to shreds, melt it, nuke it, or just stare at it. Keep it for all of eternity if you want to - I am not getting it. I am way too tired and too frustrated with you anyways to bother getting that piece of useless piece of paper. I can make my own diploma any day with any forged up, fucked up, screwed up signature by any person I want whether they exist or not. As far as I am concerned: EDUCATION IS SCREWED - therefore so is proof that I even attended that stupid education system. While I will always remember that I attended high school, specifically John Fraser - I need not have the proof that I did - as long as it is in my head and over time I may even forget that I attended high school due to memory loss, then well - I will at least remember the best and the worst of times. Of course - the greatest blessing of High School is Lady - if I did not attend high school I may probably never have met her. I think I just fucked up last year of high school and never really took it seriously and was a living dead person - a living corpse - couldn't even remember what I was thinking when I attended school - perhaps just the urge to get off and go back home to finish stupid homework and chill with friends or myself. Besides - school sucks, and that is that. Of course - I need not suppress my past - I embrace and accept my past, love it and cherish it - just not an actual piece of junk that I never will bother seeing for the rest of my life.

Over all - I am just frustrated that I don't have time to do some more self-reflection, and I always BUSY. I HATE BEING BUSY these days. I just want to RELAX. To revitalize, to rejuvenate, and to go into a state of psychological and spiritual bliss and think about how to become more selfless, helpful, better, and more enlightened...and I NEED GOD TO GIVE ME A TIME TO GET SICK and TAKE A FUCKING VACATION. I think I am working way too hard just trying to find work that by the time I actually do, I am not even sure whether or not I may be able to handle it. Just please - GOD, give time for myself at least once in my fucked up life so far - okay? Deal or no deal?

As a final point to myself: ALL WISDOM COME FROM GOD. So please - God, could thou please give me a bit of that hidden esoteric wisdom that is actually applicable? I mean - anything other than crazy conspiracy theories, symbols, and forgotten history? I mean - THANK YOU for giving me that knowledge - but what about the knowledge of how to ACTUALLY LIVE LIFE? Humble me, beat me, torture me if you will to teach me - just don't kill me.

Yours, love and missing you a lot Lady

XINYU HU

Material: Relative, Temporary, Sensing, External, Extroverted, Form, Profane, Earth, Water, Nurture, Judgment, Perspective, Ignorance, Change, Hate

Spiritual: Absolute, Eternal, Intuition, Internal, Introverted, Being, Sacred, Air, Fire, Nature, Perception, Context, Wisdom (Intellect), Constant, Love

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Now - this is only my perspective and self-reflection of what are Material and what are Spiritual Truths - in fact, most of these are based on a Youtube video that I discovered a couple weeks ago I think. Now - for those of you who say that, "Youtube sucks[...?]" without sufficiently backing up your opinion with real authentic facts and evidence - don't bother saying that Youtube sucks, or that Wikipedia sucks, or that anything that you dislike SUCKS without ever bothering to see the reality that THEY DO NOT SUCK - meaning that your opinion of them sucking has nothing to do with the fact that they are also reliable. The word, "suck" is meaningless if you just say it without backing it up with substantial evidence that can prove that it sucks - and suppose I can show you evidence that it does not suck - what then?

Anyhow - that was a bit beyond the point - but that is my perspective and opinion based on my own insight of what are Material and Spiritual Truths - you may disagree but if you don't please commentate on it - without criticizing it too much. These are just a general trend that I see in some of the people that I know. Some of them are not always true for every single person and character out there - for example, some Air people are also extremely materialistic - but that is not necessarily a bad thing - so, to put this whole thing in context - this is based on personal insight and discovery, thought and reflection. For those who disagree - please explain WHY you disagree.

And finally - still searching for work. Most likely gonna either become a security guard/officer or a bank receptionist - not so sure about being a data entry clerk. Gosh, so confused - I need some time to organize my schedule and ultimately - fix up this chaos and disaster of jobs in my life. Once that is resolved, I'll be in much more peace than I already am. Hopefully more peace will come along during this month. Once the chaos is done, I will be so much happier. Please end this job-search chaos, GOD?

As a last note: I NEED A FUCKING BREAK ASAP. I am getting sick of not being able to see my friends and let alone communicate with them very effectively...gosh. Stupid job search - oh well. Still got to do what I got to do. Just frustrated at my options: Too Many, and Fear of Disappointing others - I don't know why - but I think that fear should be a trivial thing - I hope anyways.

Yours, missing you a lot Lady...and hope you are doing well on your break...love ya

XINYU HU

P.S. How you judge others is how you yourself will be judged. What goes around comes around. Try to stop that and you will never learn.