It is quite funny actually because I am amazed that someone is smart enough to figure out something that is irrelevant to the present definition of, "Xinyu Hu." It is like somehow someone is living in the past version of myself - still assuming that I am a discipline and a veteran to Doublethink (it was great while it lasted - but it is only short-lived anyways)...and why in the world would I NOT want to consider their perspectives - if, 1) I asked them for it, 2) I am willing to hear it out, and 3) I can decide upon myself what perspective is good for me and what I can manipulate to suit the purpose of the greater good as well as the individual good. So - what in the world is wrong with this? Could YOU please tell me? If you think you are so perfect and adept at whatever you are so good at (naturally criticism) - then perhaps you should able to take in criticism yourself as well? Perhaps you should able to be understand that the past for me is the past for me - no more, no less - and I don't bother overanalyzing any stupid chess game that I called by whatever name I gave it. Why would I? Why would I want to become obsessed with every little detail around me? I try to see everything - in fact, I do my best to see the particulars and the generality all at the same time and still RETAIN THE ABILITY TO FUNCTION.

Now - I think that someone is living far too back in the past - in the STONE AGES. Fuck the Nuclear Age - if he were in the Nuclear Age he would realize that we adapt but we do not change our values that quickly. Doublethink - like all my other tactics of the past and the present are only valuable if they are a rarity and are barely used or even considered to be used to achieve a personal agenda, or Self-Enlightenment if you will. Nowadays I use the advice that Lady has given me and everyone else to achieve Enlightenment - but sometimes I consider the use of other people's values and principles - but PLEASE - do you think if I never considered your opinion I would be who I am today? Do you not think that your ideas have had at least SOME INFLUENCE? And PLEASE - stop bossing us around on how to live our lives - it is our lives - it is our happiness and it is our price to get happiness - but not at the expense of being criticized to death, to neglecting yourSELF completely for someone else's happiness - via, control of OTHER PEOPLE's LIVES - there is a LIMIT here to be able to take in criticism and bullshit from other people before you snap and break apart emotionally and spiritually.

Even in the most practical ideologies - there is idealism and pragmatism. Even in the most ideal ideologies - there is practicality and philosophical notions and policies/ideas at work. No matter - I do not deny what you have told me in your emails - I in actual fact accept them to be true to a certain extent - but only to the extent that I want them to. While I can fuck up any principle I want - for the sake of PEOPLE, I WILL NOT. I will not screw myself up like I did before with the age old, "Doublethink" Age of my life - that age has past - it is now the AGE OF ENLIGHTENMENT (no Pun [double puns] intended but Lady - you have bought this era into its full fruitition as it is today). Thank God for the Sun Lady - as without her - she is the Flower of Life - much like the Cosmos that expands and grows to infinite with its many petals into the distant future - the Rose of the Cosmos. I am as beautiful as this damn universe of OURs - why? Because that is my name - and I live up to it - and with the Lady of Flowers - Creation and the World of Enlightenment will be that much more beautiful.

Hu I am? I am ME, and I AM FREE. Infinite Love for Absolute TRUTH - the SPIRITUAL TRUTH. ENLIGHTENMENT.

Open your Eyes and See the LIGHT.

<333 888 999

XINYU HU

I would remind you, that extremism in the defense of liberty is no vice. And... moderation in the pursuit of justice is no virtue. - Barry Goldwater

These days I am really pissed off at something - that is the fact that so many people are willfully ignorant of what the faceless heirarchy that they live under does to them as a person, as an individual. I fear that when my friend, or debating buddy wants to become a police officer or lawyer - he is essentially selling himself out as a member of the System - a loyalists dedicated to conformity, obedience, utmost pride and arrogance, and eternal slavery. Soon - one day, there will come a day when everyone on this planet will be microchipped for brainwashing and obedience purposes - and guess whose going to sell that idea to everyone? Those at the top of course - those who run the show of everyday life - they are the banksters, the mafia, the criminal syndicates, the politicians, the rich bureacrats in their tall shining office towers that look down and cynically laugh at the rest of the world population - IGNORANT, OBLIVIOUS, and NAIVE to their own slavery and ignorance. In fact - the Elite of this planet counts on people depending on worthless pieces of obnoxious and ugly rocks and frayed pieces of paper that are created out of thin air, and are given imaginary values - now, considering how little I have in this life so far - I am grateful that I even have all that I need - and have her, the love of my life - for all reasons sake. As without her (you know who you are) - I would not be who I am today - a freedom fighter - for the sake of every human being on this planet - while as much as the, "masses" they are - they still deserve love and liberty - but in the end - the choice is theirs and theirs alone.

Today - the infamous, "War on Terror [Terra - Earth]" is against OUR MINDs - it is not really against, "terrorists" that live in, "mountain caves" but against the population of the planet itself. There is no military solution to wars - there is only political and social solutions - if we continue this stupid war on terrorism or war on earth - then we are sellling ourselves out to the Elite of this planet. We must know how to fight in this war - through our minds - if we must rebel and challenge the education system in the process, as well as the banking syndicates and corporate fascists - then so be it. If we land ourselves in jail and be tortured for the sake of personal sovereignty and liberty - then so be it. If we must challenge law enforcement and the military police-state then so be it - if we give up our liberty for the sake of security - paraphrasing from Benjamin Franklin - then we deserve neither liberty nor security. Today - we must all become freedom fighters - our government and corporate elites are our greatest enemies and these people are the real Nazis - the Brown Shirts and the SS - in fact - you can see the rise of fascism slowly creeping into our laws and rules set out by the Elites.

The first step into winning this war is to know yourself. How the hell are you suppose to do that? Simple - there are various strategies and tactics - first - I think - you should learn to CRITICIZE the world by learning all about psychology. Learn about yourself and study the esoteric aspects of your personality and character. THINK - use common sense - study philosophy and politics. Learn all the different schools of thought - analyze and self-reflect. From that - you are or at least - should be able to see that the world is a reflection of yourself. Stop worrying about the taboos placed on you by the society that you live in - QUESTION everything - trust nothing - trust not the Mass Media and Big Government syndicates. Trust yourself (but not too much). Talk to others, listen to others and their ideas (who knows, everyone may be in need of help sooner or later)...Open your Eyes.

The second step is to be yourself - but you must remember that life does not offer you or anyone the luxury of being conservative all the way through - if change is a necessity - then change must happen - since we can't live in a one-seasoned world, neither can yourself. Defend your positions and beliefs - but constantly learn new things - learn new perspectives - use the Hegelian Dialect - the secret to forming yourself and being yourself (study Hegel - the German philospher much like Kant and Leibniz)...Open your Mind.

Third - love yourself and from there - love others - but continue the first two steps - they are indefinite. The process of knowing, being and love yourself is indefinite, it is infinite because only you would know yourself. Know Thyself. Be Thyself. Love Thyself. Open your Soul.

Liberty means responsibility. That is why most men dread it - George Bernard Shaw.

No matter how safe you try to make this world - it will never be safe as it never was and never is. If we try to make it safer - then we are risking more than there ought be risked. We might as well live in danger with liberty than security with slavery.

If the world seeks to be ignorant, naive, and oblivious - yet living in liberty, and loving one another - that time will never come - as it never did exist, does not exist, and will never exist. The only guardian to tyranny is the right to read, know, understand, and appreciate.

Live up to yourself and once you do - you will be free (for more information refer to Lady).

Yours, love; life; liberty; learning

Don't think of it as 'gun control', think of it as 'victim disarmament'. If we make enough laws, we can all be criminals. - Unknown

When only cops have guns, it's called a "police state". - Claire Wolfe, "101 Things To Do Until The Revolution"

It's better to have a gun and not need it than to need a gun and not have it. - Unknown

Beware of the police-state. Beware of fascism. Beware of Big Brother. Beware - oh Lord, alas - of an Orwellian Brave New World.

FREEDOM to fascism - that is why the right to bear arms and the right to know your rights is significant to our liberty and sovereignty.

So - these days I have been out of town and learning about becoming a security officer (now, don't stop and tell me that, "You're not made to do that job Xinyu - because you are not practical" - I know who you are - I am watching you)...

Anyhow - passed the whole course (what I got on the exam or test I won't tell)...so, it was a pretty great experience - the guy was funny and definitely a Leo (he was born in August)...and he appealed to me really well because of his experiences and his knowledge of the business and its people, and the overall work environment and duties and responsibilities of a security guard...and I loved it when we got to diss the hell out of the government and we kind of provoked one another into discussing it because we did talk about Big Government and Big Business and Bureacracy, as well as their implications on our freedoms and civil liberties as Canadians.  

But - anyways - really tired after going to Downtown Toronto for two days in a row - exhausted, but also more happier than ususal (since I now have a license to do this kind of thing)...and now - I just need to go to an interview and get the job that I want near home, and I promise - I can do an excellent job - and that promise is only to myself. Then again - after waking up so early for two days in a row - I need a temporary vacation that would last - oh, probably only a couple of days before I go out there and get that job I want at Erin Mills Town Center, preferably.

Over all - I am just saying - I NEED A REST.

Yours, missing you a lot Lady - I PROMISE US that I WILL FIND A WAY TO SUPPORT US.

XINYU HU

I only have this to say to myself and all those who are realizing how much it sucks to unconsciously or consciously control others (I at least used to want to try controlling others - even without me being aware of it directly even indirectly - why the hell didn't someone tell me that earlier?)...so, still trying and doing my best not to be a bully and other shit - but the thing is - the world is seriously ticking me off - I want those motherfuckers (no mean to disrespect you world and school but you really deserve it) - to feel my anger and my wrath since they think they are so good and so great at fucking us up over and over again...

So - I hear there was another school shooting? Well, well - what do you know? We have learnt nothing from VTech, Columbine, Montreal - and now in EUROPE? Now - someone is in a deep sleep here - the world has to wake up and see to that it is not bullying us into conformity anymore...and just shut up...and let us be. I don't have much time but my point is this: SCHOOL SHOULD BE ILLEGAL until it fixes itself up - of course, I can't really do anything as of yet - but one day I will and I shall if those motherfuckers and cocksuckers don't do shit - I will force them to if I must - as a last and final resort to revolution and freedom for all to all by all. For now - tolerance, self-control and oversight, as well as self-accountability - respect and dignity to this fucking shitty system that really to be honest - doesn't deserve any of it.

One day if school is going to die then it must die - and it will. That includes every fucking university and college, high school and middle school - all will change or be rendered obsolete (depending on how much brainwashing they do to our kids)...for crying out loud - school has raped our minds (at least when I went to school) - now they want us to follow their orders as well? How crazy is this world getting?

School and the System - go fuck yourselves - we'll be watching, and we'll be satisifed. In fact - you already are.

Wow - it has been a while since I last updated - busy, superbusy these days. Anyways - I have concluded that after reading my entry on that famous or infamous chess game that I WILL NOT play chess against my friend AT ALL until he doesn't give a shit about winning or losing, and just have fun. Geez - some people are so hard to handle - so sensitive, so critical, and so inconsiderate of how other people might feel if they are constantly told how to live their life and how to be a better person by someone who is neither perfect in their own lifestyle nor is any better a person than the person whom they were criticizing (in fact the person who gets criticized is way above the criticism of that kind of idiot who says one thing but does something else completely diferent).

Anyhow - been handing out resumes like insane these days - and I have way too many choices - hence, why I am so busy these days. Tomorrow I got to do two freaking job interviews - one is at Downtown Toronto, another is at the Mall. Then - after all that - I still got to go to KFC on the weekend to do work, then on the following Tuesday go to Oakville (somewhere around that city) and give the KFC there my employee number (confidential).

So - over all, a busy week ahead - and I still yet got to take care of mathematics and data entry practise - then I can become a data entry person - or a clerical person (I hate warehouse work and factory work)...

Good luck to myself, I think - and I got to cook more food for myself...

Yours, 888 <333 999

XINYU HU

P.S. Iron Horse - sounds like Dark Horse to me...

P.P.S. I miss you a lot Lady of Flowers...<3 u

So - after trying to access TV-links just when I needed it the most - I couldn't...then I found out why today - it has been shut down by the frigging Big Government in the City of London by the British police with FACT (or more like FANTASY) - due to a, "copyright violation." It's owner has been arrested but no charges are able to be laid against him/her because there is no substantial evidence by the Law to prove that by LINKING the videos, documentaries and shows that he was really violating any copyright law. First of all - copyright cannot be stolen - it is impossible to steal it can only be copied - that is what the internet does - it copies and recreates the information highway - I mean at this rate they might as well shut down Xanga, Youtube, Wikipedia, and all the sites on the planet that are, "referring" to source of information, while not stealing it away or anything.

So - I am really ticked off - now I need a new source of information to replace (hopefully temporarily) TV-Links - as it was and still is one of my best and most reliable sources (at least along with all my others)...what the fuck yo? What the hell is Big Government and Big Business up to? They can't even handle people simply copying and pasting their information so then other people do not need to go and find them all - that is not a crime, not a violation of the law of any jurisdiction, and it is total nonsense. Seriously - there should not even be a thing called, "copyright." Fuck copyright - it prevents innocent people from accessing classified and top secret, if not rare information on the information highway - to cut to the chase - COPYRIGHT IS INFORMATION CONTROL. My God - these government people are insane - there is absolutely NO LEGAL ground whatsoever to arrest a man or woman who was simply linking the sites on to his or hers so then people can VIEW them - there is no way that anyone could just simply STEAL it - it is not like I can go to your home and steal YOUR IDEAS even when you are not around to watch over it...

This is total absurdity - I feel offended and I take this news very personally - because information hacking/finding/distribution, and growth is what I do - I am a seeker of the truth, and that means the information highway must not be clogged and blocked by stupid laws that are not for the benefit of humanity AT ALL. There is simply - as I have stated prior - for the shutting down of any site on the internet as long as it does contain purely obscence and perverted material (but that has nothing to do with copyright - I am talking about sex abuse or child porno shit on the internet, although it does relate to one's FREEDOM OF SPEECH)...

Sometimes the world really has a way with treating its people like shit - it somehow thinks that it is the best and the only (although not the most efficient, effective, or easiest) way of obtaining rightful, innocent entertainment and information...) Thank god the internet is not like the TV - as TV is hypnotic, but the INTERNET IS MEANT TO BE FREE - it is for you and me - and in the future - we should also have books online - on the internet so then information has no bounds and we can access every source of information - it is our destiny and we will get there someday.

First though - please - restore TV-Links to its rightful place on the internet where it belongs to everyone - then we can worry about the legal issues. Information is our right, and we the people have the right to access it - that also includes top secret and classified documents hidden by the government regarding secret technology and its dirty tricks departments like the CIA and facilities like Area51, Dulce Air Base and NORAD.

Hope you all understand my rant...

Yours, XINYU HU

P.S. I miss u a lot.

The title was quite shocking and not much of a surprise - the only thing was the number, "33," that was a biggie that made me wonder - just who the hell is running the Canadian economy and why is it that I got fired from two jobs not counting KFC? Why did they specifically lay me off? Why did they not do it to everyone else? Was there some other motive behind their actions? Was there a more sinister agenda at hand when I got fired from my two jobs that paid pretty well? I suppose it may be paranoia on my part - but then again - I've only started working for a month...and already things are turning awkward if not bizzare...I mean - I am pretty much jobless - still trying to find a full-time job though...and it is pretty hard - but I can do it. Whatever - my bosses probably saw my Xanga after googling in my name on Google, discovered this site, and learnt that I am a heretic, and am not much of a fan of the status quo, authority, institutions, big businesses and multinational corporations, fascists, and corporate control of the nation of Canada.

Whatever - things are turning morbid these days - it is as if almost everyone is going pretty well with the fucking ride but me - I am not enjoying my joblessness - it sucks, and it is shit. I mean - I NEED to get a fucking full-time job somewhere - preferably near where I live...it would make life a whole lot easier for sure.

I really miss you - by the way - did you go to his birthday party? Hmmm...I didn't go - busy with work and still doing the best I can to get a job - full time. Hopefully someone notices how desperate I am to work for them while paid a decent rate per hour...

Hope my chess playing friend can live with the fact that I WON in the chess game that we played last week - hopefully he'll come to terms with it and just accept it.

Yours, busy and with <3

XINYU HU

So - apparently while playing chess two nights ago against my friend, I made 14 communication errors, as well as one or two small yet critical strategic errors with the rooks...now considering how late it was - it was kind of inevitable on my part - so, I get blamed to the max for making the simplest mistakes or errors or even typos..."I made no mistakes, but look at you Xinyu - your mistakes are way worse and stupid than mine." That was the message I got - that somehow, HE thinks he is so much better than I am just because he made no communications mistakes and showed off his fucking lawyer skills - well, screw that - I don't give a fuck about 14 mistakes and I admit and confess that I do make those kind of mistakes - that I am not lawyer; I am only a student of life itself and its many hardships, struggles, and di/stress.

But - still, it would have made NO difference at all whether I made those mistakes of naming the pieces, "E" or not or whether or not I named a wrong coordinate or that I mistakenly thought that there was a piece on a coordinate when there really wasn't one. Could you not at least have told me that I have made 14 errors without humiliating me in the process, guilt-tripping, and branding me some of kind of idiot who knows nothing about chess...because I love chess and I love strategy games...and while I do make mistakes - it was FREAKING 2 am on November 2nd, 2007 when we finally went to sleep - so what the fuck are you going to do? Tell me that it is intolerable for me to make any mistakes and that one mistake is COSTLY? While at the same time giving yourself more credit than you probably deserve for making no mistakes. You are you and I am me, so respect that and let us leave the small mistakes and focus on the BIG ones like - misplacing a piece somewhere on the chess board. Please - I have better projects to think about and things to worry about than how many, "communication" errors I made - look at yourself - you made totally wrong strategic errors - those errors should also count against you should they not? So - while misspellings, misreadings, and miscommunication are counted as TOTALLY perverted - there is absolutely nothing wrong about losing the Queen and pretty much getting in check like three times in a row...so that is what I get for doing my best in chess while talking over MSN...? Is that morally right to punish those who make small errors while letting those who make the biggest and the most tactically/strategically wrong get away with any humiliation, "...Just because I am a lawyer, I can count all your little mistakes and fuck you over with it?" Well - fuck me then - I don't care - it makes no difference to the outcome of the game...and I would have still won - either way - with or without communications errors/typos, strategic misunderstanding and unawareness. By and by - what have you been DRINKING? EVIAN - NAIVE?

And guess what? I DID WIN. Either way - whether I made a few strategic errors or a lot of small communication errors - there is no guessing that I DID win.

By all means - tell them your side of the story of being the best at spelling and naming coordinates at 2 am in the morning...your standards are BULLSHIT - so FUCK YOUR STANDARDS.

Yours, humiliated and angry

XINYU HU - funny - lawyers punish the petty criminals while electing in the big thugs from the Mafia to join them in their thirst for personal power and glory.

P.S. Miss you a lot already Lady

P.P.S. By the way - did you notice that 11-03 = 33

P.P.P.S. Winning is not important - and neither is losing - as long as you LEARN WHY YOU LOST/WON - that is all that counts. If you do not learn that - then it would have been the same if you had lost the game.

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Quote Number Three is the most significant in the world of today. Most of our elected officials of the country are criminals or bankster/gangsters who are not interested in the public good, and because of their ability to tell us that they are bullshitting us - they can get away with it without charge and without going to jail at all. Today - we truly do persecute, prosecute, discriminate, eliminate, and target the petty criminals who have done nothing wrong that is really considered, "victimized." If a, "crime" is put in its proper context, then one would realize that people get hanged and, "neutralized" for the simplest, "crimes" - whether it be robbing a bank just to be able to live another day because the world would not given them any money to survive, or those who do not follow the mainstream media, and the flow of things...people like myself and my friend who are still struggling to fight for our own rights and independence alone, nevermind the rights of those who are continually being suppressed and oppressed by the world into thinking that obedience and conformity is the only way to achieve universal freedom - more like universal slavery.

Oh well - the world is the world, it is up to the people of the world to be empowered to want to change the world, it is indeed their own fault for choosing to be powerless and disempowered by the System - if they truly wish to be free then they should be - but not at the force or persuasion of myself or others - but by themselves and themselves alone regardless of the consequences that follow. If liberty and independence are worth the consequences then I say - DO IT. But - don't listen to me - listen to that little voice in your head that will guide you.

Remember - choice is the problem here - it is between those who give themselves power to change the world and those who do not give themselves the power to change the world and themselves in the process.

Yours, infinite love

XINYU HU