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  • What inspires you? What gets your creativity-engine roaring?

    Apparently the thing that inspires me the most is when I am with my friends and when I see the number 33...it is my favourite number and it gets my creativity engine rolling...and it is pretty fun actually...and above all - conspiracy theories, as well as the paranormal and everything else...almost a bit of everything...as well as symbols...art, literature, and mystique...the mysteries and the philosophies, as well as - oh, I don't know - religion, politics, psychology and all the major arts and sciences...


     


    That is all.


     


    XINYU HU


    Lord X33

       


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  • Let the Emotions Flow Through You...

    After a deep discussion with my friend today, I have concluded that since I love sappy, emotional, and sometimes really sad, depressing and dramatic songs - I can and I will be able to show my emotions more and let it flow through me. I want to feel and sense my own emotions - and understand it, experience it, and let it be...because emotions like reasoning are precious to understanding oneself.


    I must admit that I want to obtain some of the good qualities of the Water signs that I know - but not lose my Fire sign characteristics...and even seek to understand Air next, then Earth. I know it is not the traditional-Avatar way of learning about the Four Elements and their personalities and how they each operate...


    First though - experience, understand, and feel the power of the elements...then I can become a great person one day...and one day I will.


    I've been looking up at the rubik's cube solutions videos on Youtube - pretty fun. I'm also gonna check out chess techniques as well...and other strategies. One day I will become a chess grandmaster - or, even better - the chess grandmaster of the century. I seek to do something great one day and one day, someday I will fulfill my dreams because I promised myself that someday I will become a great person - the Avatar incarnated...because each one of us capable of being the Avatar within...the Christ within.


    Open up your full potential. Know thyself.


     


    Yours, infinite love for infinite truth for infinite enlightenment


     


    XINYU HU


     

  • Dear Global Elite System:

    Just a few simple questions - take a few moments to please answer these question...honestly and sincerely - and let us imagine that you are no better than me


    From PINK (Dear Mr. President):


    I'd like to ask you a few simple questions if you could answer honestly


    [Truthfully and Compassionately]


    Just how do you expect men like David Icke to express his opinion and research in a, "free country" if you restrict his freedom to say that the Rothschilds are up to no good? Have you ever read David Icke's works? Do you know what context he is talking about? Do you understand that he has the right to say whatever he want about anyone as long as he says it, it is a victimless crime to insult Rothschild and his interests? How do you know for sure that the Rothschilds are good Jews? How do you know for certain that you are serving the interests of the Jews?


    And - what about one's freedom of speech? Do you not care for other people's liberties? Do you not care for the right of another person to speak their mind, and their ideas - no matter how bizarre, how stupid, how insane, how much it might be against the norm?


    Let me tell you about liberty - it means responsibility


    Let me tell you about liberty - it means caring for the truth


    Let me tell you about liberty - it means hearing what you do not want to hear


    Let me tell you about liberty - it is precious, it is fragile, it is delicate, it is life and it is tradition itself


    Let me tell you about liberty - if you take away another's liberties, then you do not deserve any yourself


    Let me tell you about liberty - it must be secured, it must be treasured, it must never be perverted and ridiculed


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    Let me tell you about life - it is never safe, you can never make it safe


    Let me tell you about life - it is not a dictatorship


    Let me tell you about life - it is about you and me, it is about us


    Let me tell you about life - to be ridiculed, rejected, neglected, forgotten, exiled, outcast from everyone


    Let me tell you about life - it is about responsibility, about understanding and enlightenment


    Let me tell you about life - it is about listening and tolerance


    Let me tell you about life - it is God-given and it is one's own to live in respect and dignity


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    Let me tell you about love - it is God, it is the only truth


    Let me tell you about love - it is tolerance for all that is tolerable


    Let me tell you about love - it is beautiful


    Let me tell you about love - it is free and humble


    Let me tell you about love - it is honor and duty


    Let me tell you about love - it means liberty with responsibility


    Let me tell you about love - it is infinite


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    Now - let me tell you about the internet - it is OURS (We the People) to rule and OURS to own - not up to special lobbyists and rich people who have nothing to do but to think about how to violate and destroy our freedoms while sitting in their offices and office towers so then they can dictate to us what we can say or cannot say...


    Now - let me tell you - you can never and never will stop, "internet hate" - because if you do, then you do not value liberty - as Voltaire once stated:


    "I disagree with what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it."


    How can you say you respect liberty and freedom when you take away the freedom and liberty of those you despise?


    How can you say you respect life and death when you take away one's freedom to read, write, speak, and think about what THEY want? By then you already destroyed their lives by making them OBEY...


    How can you say that the world is peaceful when there is so much wars?


    How can you say that we are all equal when you treat men like Icke and those who, "oppose" Rothschild like nothing?


    How do you feel when you go to work?


    How do you feel when you hear about the wars?


    How do you feel when you go to sleep?


    Can you even answer these questions?


    Can you even look me in the eye? (from PINK)


    You wouldn't take a moment to answer these questions would you?


    Would YOU?


     


    888 <333 999


     


     


    XINYU HU


    Seven Days of Lonely - I Nine


    Ohh
    I got a call today
    At 3 AM
    It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again.
    So I hung up the phone
    and I screamed out loud
    I felt so alone, I should had said the things I'm thinking now

    Ohh never thought it would be so hard to let you go

    Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I cant forget
    It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
    When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
    God I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.
    (The seven days of lonely, yeah)

    Oh it's deafening
    The bitter truth
    I'm doing everything for the first time again without you
    I pretend I'm ok
    But it aches inside
    There's got to be a way that's better then just getting by

    Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I can't forget
    It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
    When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
    God I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.

    My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over
    And can you die of heartbreak to die for love lost young I pray to find it again, oh again

    Got a call today
    At 3 AM
    It's what you didn't say that hurts again

    Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I cant forget
    It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
    When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
    God I wish you could hold me
    Through the seven days of lonely
    Through the seven days of lonely
    Through the seven days of lonely
    Through the seven days of lonely
    Ohhhhhh

     


     

  • What Does it Take To Be Happy?

    My parents and some of my friends are fucking badgering and bossing me these days with, "You are insane son because you always follow the, 'minority'," "You don't like the world,"  "You are so negative," "You and Anthia are [fucked]," or, "You know shit about the world so you better obey and live a, 'normal' lifestyle," "We want you to be happy, so, to be happy, you must obey us." Oh, really? OBEY YOU at the expense of MY happiness? Do you even know what happiness means? What does it even mean to be, "happy?" Is there even such a thing called, "happiness?" At what cost do we have to pay to be, 'happy?' Does happiness mean I give up my life and my wellbeing and myself so then I can fucking fuck myself over to please you? Does happiness mean I remain willfully ignorant, ignore the reality of the world, and believe that I am somehow incapable of changing the world?


    Like - seriously people - answer these simple fucking questions (sarcastically) - like PLEASE before you accuse me of being insane, stupid, an idiot, or naive of shit. How can you go against something if you don't even STUDY it? How can you oppose what I believe if you, "foolishly" attack me as a, "fool?" How can you say that I should stop investigating the truth and just attack the source of my information? How can you even understand something if you see it as, "Just a ,'crazy' person's idea, that is all?" But,  BUT - here is another logic hole - how can someone be, "crazy" if you think that what they are saying is, "crazy" if you never even read or seen one letter of what his or her message is? How do you define, "normal?" Is there such a thing as a, "normal human being?" Please my parents and friends - ask yourself these questions before you blab out shit that I can dish out right back at you without any regrets...because I don't regret what I did, what I am doing or what I am going to do in life. Don't guilt-trip me people because I need not guilt myself for what I know and can confirm both logically and rationally to be true - regardless of the argument for, "insanity" against me - it proves nothing about the facts that I am right - that there is a fucking conspiracy and we all know it. By arguing to say that I am insane, it just further proves that I am right, it doesn't make me feel as if I did wrong - if you were me what would you do? Ignore the facts and just obey? Please - OBEDIENCE is what the world and almost everyone wants - YOU MUST FOLLOW THE MAJORITY, if NOT - then the MINORITY IS INSANE - if you do what YOU WANT - YOU ARE FUCKED. Eh? What the fuck? What kind of argument is this? This has nothing to do with facts and the truth, it has everything to do with your opinion of what you think of me or those that dedicate their lives to trying to free us from slavery and eternal bondage...


    Perhaps the world needs a fucking wake-up call, because I am going to open their eyes for them if they don't do it themselves (just being angry here) - so, please people THINK FOR YOURSELF. FUCK EDUCATION - public I meant, and LEARN THINGS YOURSELF. Don't tell me you can't even teach yourself? All you need to do is learn how to THINK - think with your mind, and know thyself. Don't ignore your unwary feelings of suspicion or doubt when it comes to the ability and credibility of the, "official" sources of information...you just need to open your eyes, your ears, and your MIND to the reality that is hidden right in front of you. But - if you choose to be willfully ignorant, "keep one eye open and one eye closed," then don't force me to go down to the pit with you of hell and ignorance when you fall down there because you are blind - because I won't and don't force me to, because I NEVER EVER WILL.


    Life is not about living the life other people want you to live - you deserve the life you, yourSELF want to live - and start THINKING, forget about beLIEving in shit - whatever shit they may be - you have the right to choose, reject, accept, analyze, and create new ideas for yourself, by yourself, and be yourself. Unless you know yourself and start thinking - then you are lost, and can never be forgiven because you have not been able to find and forgive yourself - you are the Holy Spirit, as without you, you won't be able to even face up to the many other Children of God (Sons and Daughters), never mind GOD...


    This is my message to my opponents and those who feel that I insulted them by choosing to drop out of university and not obey. If you still want to exterminate, assimilate, boss around, terminate, murder, kill, or destroy me and those that seek to be free - you are allowed - but be forewarned: YOU WILL NEVER WIN.


    Yours, infinite love for infinite peace for infinite enlightenment (888 <333 999)


    Lord X


    XINYU HU


    P.S. Give yourselves a break people - you need to have time to know thyself.


    P.P.S. It is not happiness that I seek, it is the truth and the self; that would make me more than happy, it would be joy for eternity (credit it to Lady Liberty)


    P.P.P.S. "In the world of today, the man/woman with both eyes open is supreme."




     

  • Memorable Proses & Quotes...

    1. "[T]he student is no more better than the teacher, and viceversa because none can be perfect and none will ever be - but only better."


    2. "Roll the dice, twist and turn the cube, and make your move."


    3. "Whether you be yourself or go through the hell to discover yourself, you will either way find yourself whether you like it or not."


    4. "There are three things to us that are important if we are to survive - in moderation - Self, Ego, Persona, but thanks to the trauma of the last ten thousand years or more - our self has been repressed and the ego and persona have been taken to extremes - this explains - at least partially why we feel so tired and traumatized by the dark spirit of the world."


    5. "The world is what our minds make of it, if we choose to not consider our own mind, then we have failed to consider the world altogether, whether consciously or unconsciously being aware of it."


    6. "Thank goodness the world does not revolve around anyone - because if it did, we would not even bother being responsible, but thanks to the concept of HUMAN responsibility, we can at last be responsible for our liberties and duties - the only thing is we fail to do so."


    7. "The time has come for the human race, as individuals first then as a race to stand up and defend its right and liberties to the death in the 21st century. We are all each the Christ within - the Christ that can save the world and I promise you - we will get back the world as it is ours and always will be."


    8. "Slavery is the worst crime against the mind - by teaching us to think alike the education system has raped us of our wellbeing - something more important and just as important as the food you eat to survive."


    9. "Today there are no neutral ground, there is only good vs evil, black vs white, right vs wrong - because when you choose to be a bystander you have unconsciously on a higher order of choice - chosen evil, wrong, and darkness - cowardice is not an option."


    10. "I much prefer poverty with liberty than pampering with slavery." (in honor of the greatest freedom fighters and those who fought for our freedoms through blood and honor).


    11. "The Elite does not care what your feelings and thoughts are - as long as you work, obey, and remain willfully ignorant they can pull all the strings and order the bees to sting you without you even noticing you got stung."


    12. "Money is not the solution to our problems today - it is love - it is the desire to CONTROL MONEY and CONTROL YOUR LIFE not let money CONTROL YOU."


    13. "Banks are the greatest frauds in history - thanks to them we are in constant debt, and our cash has no actual value because it is created out of nothing and we must pay the bankers more nothing than they already gave us to start with."


    14. "To be yourself is what matters most and to think critically, creatively and cautiously is what makes you, YOU."


    15. "Those who manipulate, murder, kill, conspire, and rob in the name of wealth and power deserve neither wealth nor power."


    16. "We are the only hope for the world, if we do nothing, then the world will become as nothing as ourselves."


    17. "The world would be safer if everyone is allowed to speak, read, write, and view what is on their mind without any restrictions."


    18. "Infinite Love for Infinite Peace for Infinite Enlightenment - that is our destiny."


    19. "Our society is so Orwellian and Brave New World that we have no way of differentiating and integrating what we learn to OURSELVES because everyday we are being spoonfed by the Mass Media and Big Government that ignorance is strength, that war is peace, and that freedom is slavery; while at the same time we are taking more and more drugs and treated like cattle."


    20. "Sheeple is the worst enemy to the sheep and the sheepdog."


    21. "Think for yourself and you would no doubt conclude that your world is not what it appears to be on the surface, for it did you would have seen it already."


    22. "The world has a few basic mottos that we should all be aware of: War is Peace, CONFORM, OBEY, DON'T THINK FOR YOURSELF, DON'T QUESTION AUTHORITY, BUY, SELL, THIS IS YOUR GOD (money), FREEDOM is SLAVERY, IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH; and until we do - we will never be free."


    23. "Fuck education if you have to by the balls because it has grabbed you by the balls and is asking for it - you just have to do it."


    24. "Resistance and uniqueness is what makes us people for at least one second when we are no longer choosing to be slaves."


    25. "In order to achieve self-actualization you must be able to understand all that there is to understand as the world is a mirror image of yourself. What you see in yourself you see in the world - it is that simple and that complex."


    26. "The world would be better if it had not been enslaved by the concept of paper and rock that are given numerical values, as it has gave us a life of sadness, misery, paranoia, dependency, and materialism. That is not progress - that is the fall of civilization - of tradition, or culture, of life, and of the self." (creditted to Lady of Flowers and her spiritually inclined teachings)


    27. "It would be a whole lot of a hell easier if our lives were not determined by the cash we make but by the wisdom we hold."


    28. "The owners of the world don't care about its, 'lower class' citizens - we are slaves, and they are the masters of the game called The System - The Matrix. It is up to us to take back the power that is rightfully ours."


    29. "Nobody is ever told to OBEY anyone on this world - the only problem is whether or not we choose to obey or oust those who seek to control us."


    30. "Government is mind control because to govern means to control, and, 'ment' means mental - or mind."


    31. "Know thyself - it is the first stage to freedom and liberation."


    32. "We are our own mirrors, and the mirrors of our friends and family, and the mirror to the world and for the world itself."


    33. "The central sun of the world is in each one of us, as we can know ourselves and we will - then we are truly free and liberated from the slavery of the world."







  • A Song Dedicated to All For All...by Avril Lavigne

    Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On


    You're not alone
    Together we stand
    I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
    When it gets cold
    And it feels like the end
    There's no place to go
    You know I won't give in
    No I won't give in

    Keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
    Just stay strong
    'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
    There's nothing you could say
    Nothing you could do
    There's no other way when it comes to the truth
    So keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

    So far away
    I wish you were here
    Before it's too late, this could all disappear
    Before the doors close
    And it comes to an end
    With you by my side I will fight and defend
    I'll fight and defend
    Yeah, yeah

    Keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
    Just stay strong
    'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
    There's nothing you could say
    [Keep Holding On lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

    Nothing you could do
    There's no other way when it comes to the truth
    So keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

    Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
    Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
    Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
    Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

    La da da da
    La da da da
    La da da da da da da da da

    Keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
    Just stay strong
    'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
    There's nothing you could say
    Nothing you could do
    There's no other way when it comes to the truth
    So keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

    Keep holding on
    Keep holding on

    There's nothing you could say
    Nothing you could do
    There's no other way when it comes to the truth
    So keep holding on
    'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


     



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    I dedicate this song to Lady Liberty...and to all freedom fighters out there and all those who seek true independnece from Big Government and their own self-deception. We are the lost, but we keep holding on until we find ourselves and free ourselves from our eternal slavery, a death-slave condition that has been imposed to us by those on the top of the pyramid of manipulation. Keep holding on, and keep finding yourself and reach your full potential as we are all capable regardless of any taboos on the SELF.

     

    Yours, much love and care to all

     

    XINYU HU

     

    p.s. Hugs and kisses to all

     

     


     

  • "Crazy Conspiracy Theorist?" What Does it Prove?

    The typical title for people like me is, "crazy conspiracy theorist." Why? Because we come up with "conspiracy theories," regarding how the government has cheated us into wars and crappy foreign policies that are not meant for the benefit of the human race but instead for the Global Elites themselves...the rich men on Bay Street and Wall Street, as well as the City of London Incorporated...the independent city-states of the world...Vatican City, City of London Inc, and the City of Washington District of Columbia...(each by the way with a phallic obelisk as its signature symbol).


    But - wait a minute? Don't we have Columbia Sportswear? Columbia Spaceshuttle? Columbia University? Columbine shootings? Columbia Pictures? Columbia Broadcasting System? Colombia (the country that provides the United States with its drug cartels; cocaine)? British Columbia?


    And wait - the names of the space shuttles for NASA's space programme:


    COLUMBIA
    CHALLENGER

    ATLANTIS
    ENDEVOUR
    DISCOVERY


    Wait? Doesn't this sound FAMILIAR? The Columbia is the Challenger which is on an Endeavor to the Discovery of Atlantis? Why COLUMBUS? WHY COLUMBIA? WHY NOT COLUMBA? Columbia is the DOVE - the traditional peace sign - but has its origins in the occult - the God of Atlantis...the Statue of Liberty? Is it really Liberty? No way - not in this context - this is slavery man...the God of the Seas? The God of the Underworld? Persephone? TRINITY?


    Wait, wait...slow down... Just what exactly is Atlantis anyways? Simple - Atlantis is the United States - the New Atlantis. Now - wait a minute? Why the NEW ATLANTIS? What happened to the Old Atlantis? Well - for that matter - just who control the New Atlantis? Are they the same people who controlled the Old Atlantis? What is the purpose of naming America, the New Atlantis? Atlantis? Atlanta? Phoenix? Roswell? Gaza, Egypt? JerUSAlem? Israel (ISIS + RA + EL)? The 33rd Parallel? What does this got to do with you and me? Well - think about it. Why in the name would these key cities be placed near or around the 33rd parallel? Isn't a bit weird? Why the 33rd Parallel? Because this is a key spiritual energy grid line where death, destruction, carnage, sacrifice, and darkness spreads...remember how Satan took 1/3 of the angels with him to his domain on Earth? SIGNIFICANCE IN NUMBERS HERE PEOPLE!


    So - tell me - if I were really crazy do you think any, "sane" person is going to tell me that this is just an accident? Why accident? Do you think they just, "happen to" accidentally name their favorite institutions by the name of COLUMBIA? Don't you think this is ODD? THINK - what do YOU think it means?


    Yours, infinite love, 888 <333


    XINYU HU



     


    P.S. The rest I leave up to you - I have given you a universe of new ideas and thoughts - now you can research it and understand it and make it a part of your hidden arcane knowledge that public education never bothers teaching you...


     


     

  • 3^3 * 3 = 27 * 3...Mystery At Its Peak...888

    Today I went on a desperate job-seeking spree - and I didn't even believe all the "33"s or even better, "333"s that I have encountered simply by a few simple thoughts that resulted in a some pretty amazing stastic...and as the meaning of it - well, anything goes I suppose...but this case I must confess to - it is too good be to hidden away in my private thoughts in my private nation...of the mind...


    833


    433


    334


    733 * 2


    337


    330


    033


    333 * 3


    Anyhow - here is goes. Today I saw something like at least 9 cars with license plate that contains, "33." Then - at the same time - or before or after it - I see a car with license plate, "333" after three letters...pretty odd eh? Then - there is this: Time 3:33 was when I pretty much reached home...and then I realized that today is October 27...27 is 3 cubed...and my birthday is 3 squared...9.


    Then of course - there is more..."888." I saw this at least THREE TIMES. I am seriously not kidding anyone or myself...I must be seeing things that my thoughts utmost demands or requires me to see...all my favorite and culturally favorite numbers...numbers of mystery and fortune all intertwined...what does it mean?


    Funny though my birthday is my best friend's favorite number squared, but since it is her favorite number - it is also cubed...and the year of my b-day as well as the day relative to January 1st, matches her birthday...odd coincidences don't you think? Well, may be odd isn't the right word - but - funny isn't it? It is quite ironic, and also disturbing in an eccentric way how 888 and 333 or any of its derivatives and integrals follow me wherever I go...wherever I may be...is this a sign or is this a message to ME? Or is this something more? WHY AM I thinking about these kind of things? I need more self-reflection. It is time to pause and reflect whenever you become too obsessed with something...it is natural, but at times - moderation vs extremism needs to be considered both ways..."[You] are a beautiful person..."


    THINK Xinyu. SELF-REFLECTION.


     


    P.S. Lady you are so wise - wise beyond your years I must say...and I give it all to you.


     


     

  • The Matrix of Producer-Consumer Imprisonment

    These days I have been searching vehemently and vigorously for a fulltime job, but after trying several places - two warehouses doing different jobs...and so - I got rejected in both situations, apparently something to do with my physical appearance, and my "inability" to find the proper stock...besides, it is not necessarily my fault, but that is how my job-hunting skills have lead to. It lead to rejection and neglect from the bosses - either they don't like me, or they are just so prejudiced against people like myself without experience in the warehouse/factory setting. Too bad though - they don't even give you a fucking chance to IMPROVE yourself. They treat you like machines - you are never considered to be a human being that is naturally imperfect and full of flaws...my dad always says, "you must become perfect son," And so - I am like, "What the fuck?" How can you expect me to be perfect when even yourself is not perfect, and nobody will be and none has ever been perfect on this planet that is not somehow enlightened.


    I think I have developed a deeper appreciation for the world and its people...I must acknowledge that whenever I go out to buy something I am using human LABOUR - not the labor of machines (because we don't have self-conscious AI), and so - if I continue to believe as I always did (or most of us anyways) - that the product just COMES - to us - then we are deeply mistaken - it is the creation by the hands of the working class - those who are struggling, rejected, neglected, forgotten, or even outcasts - even immigrants. I don't think I'll ever take for granted the things I buy and WHY I buy things...things don't just appear to be that way - it is us who make it - and by failing to admit it we have gotten ourselves into a matrix-like environment where we passively accept the materials of our lives without any consideration whatsoever for the labor and marketing (transportation, shipping, receiving, programming, handling, packing) that goes into the MAKING of the product that we all so desire so much - we have become our own prisoners, our own storm of fear, of anger, of hatred, of jealousy, of well - everything we could lose even if we imagine somehow there is nothing left to lose (again thanks to Lady Liberty's words of encouragement - I tell myself this every moment of everyday). It is like the human race forgot what it was like to be doing menial labor and hardcore work that pays much but is also filthy, dirty, and so indoctrinated into perfection...I think we, as a species expect too much out of our fellow human beings - we treat them as if though they were, is, and always will be expendable...we are just the source of energy for the filthy dirty rich and their cocksucking bloody idiots who are not interested in OUR personalities, our characters - our SELVES. We are who we are - only we can know WHO we are...(thanks to the courtesy of Lady of Flowers by bestest of the best friend). I guess it was only through being bossed around and thugged around - that I promise MYSELF to never boss around with ANYONE, be more courteous, cautious, and thoughtful of my words and how they are used when talking to people...it is all about saying the right things at the right time, and KNOWING WHAT and WHY they are important. Thanks Lady - you taught me so much - and you are right - I am (not fully sure yet) - a wonderful/beautiful person...and that I can change, and that I can accept the past for what it was and what it is, and what it will always be...


    Finally - DON'T GIVE UP XINYU. I am still going to continue on my vigorous and determined journey on finding myself and fulfilling a fulltime position in a place, anywhere that is more stable and more reliable...and perhaps even closer to home. I don't mind Square One though, or may be even Erin Mills...anywhere else - I am not so sure...but NEVER GIVE UP Lord X - you still have hope. Get over your anger with today's situation and the exhausted self that you are already thanks to spending so much energy on doing the best you can...you need some rest mySELF.


    Yours, much love to you and all others


     


     


     


    XINYU HU


     


     


     

  • Bullshit, Trash, and Garbage...

    As I am reflecting on the world and myself - just now, I have decided to list or at least write about the differnet kind of shit that we all face each day due to our own irresponsibility or rather; decision to live in poverty and how much we can learn about the shit in this world.


    The first type of shit is bullshit. Bullshit is when we give ourselves and others the impression that if we can somehow change the name of a thing - we can change the thing - example; toilet paper has now become bathroom tissue. And - sometime in my life and yours - our, "lovers" are called. "significant others." Whose this, "significant other?" How are they significant, but how can they also be, "other?" Do you even know what shit you are talking about? Do you understand who you are talking about? Nowadays we don't have any, "stupid" people, we have people who have, "learning disabilities." People are no longer considered, "unique" they are considered, "abnormal," or, "crazy," or, "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder." Sorry, but I don't think any of these strange terms really EXISTS in the real world, they're just a part of the natural order - the way we are - if we are crazy, we should be damn proud of it. Like fuck - go with flow - we don't want to exclude anyone do we? Everyone is crazy, or stupid, or insane to a certain degree (even me, that is right) - so there is absolutely nothing new about, "mental illnesses." These are the kind of things that make life exciting and worth living for you know what I mean? I mean - if we bullshit ourselves and call it something else - it doesn't stop the fact that we are who we are no matter how many motherfuckers try to say otherwise (that includes me). What the fuck are you going to do to yourselves? Have eugenics like in Brave New World or be indoctrinated by our own personal police state like in 1984?


    Second thing - trash. Politicians and the rich cocksuckers in Ottawa, and Washington D.C. knows trash very well. In fact trash is their food. We are the trash they dump into everyday. They dump the same bullshit into our heads everyday with what to believe, what to think, what to eat (by the way it is the shit that is no good for you). Everyday we are given the impression by those rich boys that if we manage to elect them into office something drastic might change. Bullshit. Nothing or almost nothing changes. Canada is still Canada. We still have the same two-party-one-party system just like Britain and the United States. We still have the same jackasses and bastards in office, and the same greedy, egocentric, selfish politicians and bureacrats who just happen to not give a fuck.


    Third thing - garbage - and my God does the education system do this very well, and very efficiently. Thanks to the education system, students are no longer taught HOW to think, or at least the importance of creative and criticial thinking - students are merely taught to obey. Obedient workers, obedient products, obedient death-slaves is what politicians and rich cocksuckers count on; that is what they stand by: NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND. Really? Well last time you said that the students got really fucked. Somebody is losing fucking ground. They got the politicians - they fund the government, and steal our money through the income tax laws and illegal legislation that the big business interests love to have. It just so happens that most people think that somehow if they just accept things as the way they are - the education system just might change. Bullshit. Garbage. This is nuts - everyday they talk about how to improve the education system - but I think I have a solution - but it is not rational, but due to short time on earth, we don't have time to ponder rational solutions. Every student and every teacher should just say, "fuck you" to the education system and the board of education, and screw school, university, or college altogether and go home and THINK. Later on during the same day the schools should be disintegrated from the centralized education system, and become independent county or regional/local schools that are strictly under the control of those that are really suppose to run the show - us. Then - we can have a revolution that will ensure that students, schools, and teachers are free to do whatever they want to former, "public education property," in other words, "governmental, mind control property." Once the records of the old are firmly taken care of - fucked if you will, and everyone is independent - then the education system is solved. This solution is not perfect because it was not intended to be. I don't mind critics who can see what problems there are with the solution I came up with.


    I love critics, as I am one myself. Realize the bullshit. Know the trash, and throw out the garbage (no pun intended).


     


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