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  • KFC Work Experience So Far...

    Well - today is the second day that I've been working at KFC. It is a great job for sure...it is close to home and I don't have to be in too much of a hurry just to get to work every day.


    Over all - not much has been going on lately with me - I've just been updating my resume, and work hard at KFC.


    I hope your job hunting is going well Lady - kinda miss you lots already...wonder where the heck you are anyways? Haven't heard from you for a long, LONG TIME...


    Oh well - life is life these days - reading a ton of books - including Hegel's Phenomonology of Spirit - plus a ton of other books...it is GREAT.


    Still though - on second thought - I am reading like seven or eight books in a row - non stop, and I got to do some math these days or else my brain is gonna go dead...


    I so got to get back my damn laptop - it is just sad that I don't have my laptop left to play with - especially chess against the comp. It is really fun to be sure. It is awesome playing against the AI of the computer - I've been smoking them or drawing them since the last time I played. Sure, I've lost here and there - but the important thing is that I am learning how to SURVIVE against the ruthless and relentless AI. Much like how I am fighting to survive on my job at KFC - being the cook is fun! As the cook I get to see how the chicken is made - funny - ever since I started working at KFC I haven't eaten ONE chicken yet - I don't know why...? Nay - probably because of the fact that working there is not the same as just going there day to day just to eat...the feeling and psychology are totally different...


    Fuck - I haven't written a Xanga in a long, LONG time...gosh, got to update this baby more often by stealing other computers in the stupid library - whatever it is worth...


    Currently - I am just reading and studying whatever I want - especially more philosophy and I plan on getting myself more BOOKS for reading and personal meditation. It is a must for myself at the least...


    Stupid family of mine - it is so freaking divided - oh well, not my fault. My parent's don't seem to mind me dropping out - so, whatever - I can do whatever I damn well want because I can whatever I want however I want - as long as I don't commit murder along the way or destroy people's properties - I am good.


    Finally - life is a bitch sometimes - I need more things to do. I need to work hard and work fast at KFC if I were to get a full-time position there. It is a necessity, and it is a MUST-HAVE.


    Alright - take care everybody. I know, I know - I haven't responded to your emails lately guys - cause you know - complications and work. Over all - that is no excuse for me to not write back to you guys - whether you guys are at Guelph or Ottawa.


    Love to all


     


    XINYU HU


     


     

  • My Mental, "Illness:" Non-existent

    It has been two years or so since my school psychologist told me about my, "mental issues." What that, "issue" is, I won't go into detail for personal reasons.


    But, anyhow, I have decided that such an, "illness" is in my way of getting what I want in life - so, I am going to delete out of my life, and forget that I even have it - even the name shall be forgotten in my memory. I need not say what it is because it does not exist in the past, in the present, nor in the future. I have never HAD a mental illness, and even if I had - it is an inconvenient truth - an obstacle that needs to be taken care of. In other words - destroyed, terminated, and fucked.


    Hence - with the elimination of that stupid disease or, "mental illness" out of the way - I can do whatever I want now - since I consider myself to be sane just like the way I see fit. I am free and I am me no matter what, "mental issues" surround me - and no matter what laws surround me. I am myself and no one and nothing can stop that - and if I choose to reject something that is unnecessary or perhaps an obstacle in my path to fulfilling my destiny - so be it. I don't care about whatever stupid, "mental illness" I have or had or will have - because I HAVE NONE.


    It doesn't matter what psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers, or professional people say - I am always myself no matter what condition I have or don't have. People somehow expect me to be, "normal." Fuck, "Normal." There is no such thing as, "normal." You are either yourself or you aren't. It is the truth, and either take it or leave it.


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    Fuck the Free world, I am getting sick and tired of people thinking they're free when in actual fact they ARE NOT free from the evil clutches of Big Brother.


    I am a conspiracy theorist - but my conspiracy theories are not my words - they're based on the actual words and rhetoric of those in power and what they want in their position of manipulation and coercion. You can say that,"research" is merely opinion in disguise, or that, "you have selfish motives in fighting for freedom," "If given the chance to rule you would be a tyrant," "Nobody notices, nobody cares," "You're trying to control how other people live their life," and such things as, "You are insane, a lunatic, crazy, sick bastard," and the classical one that is like this: "Nobody understands freedom and everyone is enslaved already and so are you." Well - what does any of these arguments got to do with the facts and proofs that I represent to you all on behalf of TRUTH? I can't think of one relationship between any of these classical, "you-are-insane" arguments that disapproves any of the numerous concrete evidence that is spoken or quoted from really notorious if not powerful Elitists (all except the last argument which actually do make sense to a certain extent but should not stop anyone from resisting the Controllers and Elitists).


    Well - if we DON'T DO ANYTHING against the rich and powerful - then we are just merely adding to the evil of this world. Why must we JOIN EVIL? Could we not at least RESIST IT?


    And who says we don't understand what freedom is? Do we really have to fundamentally understand freedom? Yes, of course - this is the only argument that makes any sense in trying to dissuade me to think otherwise - but the rest of those arguments are merely inconsistent, inconclusive, and biased. They are merely arguments of proving how well you are at obeying the system in and of itself - they don't contradict my proofs in any way.


    Perhaps most of us are doing too much wishful thinking - we imagine that somehow if we just live a normal, ordinary life and don't bother the system, they system won't bother you - well, reality check:


    The System bosses you around every fucking day of your sorry lives with what to beLIEve, what to THINK, what to BUY - how you should live, how you should think, and how you should brainwash/oppose anyone who wants to resist the ridiculous system of coercion and manipulation.


    Don't think what I am saying here is real? Well - try posting things up at school or university that opposes its doctrines and see how it reacts - perhaps you'll even notice contradictory/double-standards in the way it reacts to you and everyone else who dares to oppose it?


    Then again - don't take my words of truth and honest sincerity - think for yourself for fucking ONCE. BE FREE from this institutionalized society. You don't need to live a, "good materialistic life," to be a, "good person," you just need to EXAMINE YOUR LIFE and the WORLD AROUND YOU. All I know is that I know absolutely shit about this thing that I am into - even if I am into it - but does that matter? Should that stop you from THINKING FOR YOURSELF? Should that stop you from WANTING TO BE FREE FROM THE CONTROLLERS? Should that stop you from FREEING OTHERS? NO - you know it and I know it. Now we all know it.


    You don't NECESSARILY need to beLIEve in anything I say on these entries - even if they are TRUE. Just knowing them would be fine and doing something about that knowledge would be even better - you don't necessarily need to BELIEVE.


    Just be careful of the world you are living in - be aware, open your eyes, open your mind, and open your ears.


    The world is what you make of it - but if we work together then we can all be free - is freedom not what you want? If there were only slavery - then no matter what would that stop us from FREEING ourselves? Does not freedom still exist, even if its existence is only metaphysical?


    All you need is your heart, mind and soul, friends and family to live the good life - you don't necessarily need materials and shit like that to live a good life - we all suffer no matter what - no matter how much shit we own or have. THE price of liberty is suffering and danger - but if we are to sacrifice our liberty then we have peace with slavery - and can any of us imagine that?


    Nothing should stop us from fighting for OUR FREEDOMS together - as one - because only as one can we get back what is rightfully ours from our government, big business, big banks, and big media - the TRUTH.


    If - on the other hand, you don't care about truth, freedom, and such precious, fragile metaphysical concepts - then it is not my responsibility - it is YOURS and YOURS ALONE.


    Yours, 888 <3


     


     


    XINYU HU


     


     


     

  • My Job-hunting Luck...

    So far - ever since the day I gave out a ton of my resumes in Square One and went around my own area to hand out resumes - people have been calling me like crazy. I've went to like four or five interviews already - and it seems like I soon may be getting a job - at KFC, Tim Hortons, or Harveys.


    If I just work a tad bit hard enough I just might get a job at KFC - so, Thursday - got to go to KFC to get some private business done. Aside from that - I also got to phone Harveys regarding my plans of how to negotiate my different jobs around here.


    Where I live specifically - nobody needs to know. That is a secret in case I have fucking CSIS and CIA officers, operatives, and agents hunting me down. Not that they already don't know where I reside. I know for sure that thse intelligence agencies and watchdogs of Big Brother are keeping tabs on me and my associates - everywhere - in University, to here - they're watching me and my every move with my friends and comrades.


    Fine then - fuck you Big Brother/One World State - you can go fuck yourself all you want by sending all the agents and thoughtpolice you want against me - but PLEASE - you think I am dumb enough to NOT NOTICE?


    FUCK YOU BIG BROTHER.


    And I could get revenge on a part of my past that I despise - I WILL.


     


    Urs, much love <3


     


     


    XINYU HU


     


     

  • Are you happy?

    Yes, I am - considerin I am the 333rd person to answer this question! Definitely!


    Alright, not exactly - but somewhat still - I'll be happier once I get a job and am able to support myself financially...

       


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  • I NEED A JOB: EMERGENCY SITUATION

    I am getting somewhat serious about this - like I have been since September began - that I need a fucking job asap. I need to be get a freaking job no matter what. I am about to go broke if I don't get a freaking job - for experience at the least.


    I am serious and urgent about needing a job - whether or not that place is 1 minute away or 1 hour away. I don't care about distance or transportation - I have that taken care of. I just need a job, and a job is what is most important right now.


    I just need to take this thought out of my head before it bursts - as I am working at it to get a job, and improving my chances of getting one. I'll hang out with my friends later once I get a job - but for now, personal and financial stability is a must-have for a man like myself. Not getting a job is freaking humiliating, and it is of utmost paramount importance that I do get a job somewhere around here. May God help me.


     


    Thanks a lot...


     


    Yours, sincerely


     


    XINYU HU


     


     


     

  • The Four Divine Order of Things...

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     Chinese Words - 4 Elements, Directions, Seasons, Forces


      


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  • What is one quote that best describes your views on life?

    Sanity is not statistical -- Being in a minority, even a minority of one, did not make you mad. - Winston Smith, from George Orwell's 1984

    They that can give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety. - Ben Franklin, 1755, to the Pennsylvania State Legislature   


    I prefer liberty with danger than peace with slavery. - Jean Jaqueas Rousseau


     


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    I would remind you, that extremism in the defense of liberty is no vice. And... moderation in the pursuit of justice is no virtue. - Barry Goldwater

     

  • How do you define yourself? How does your opinion compare to what others think of you?

    I define myself through my philosophies, actions, and life purpose (although life purpose is something hard to find, but still, I think I got to do what I got to do).


    My opinion of myself is that it is important for me to humble and be a bit more mature. Other people say that I am nice guy, reliable, pretty unique, and have something to offer to the rest of humanity - that is if humanity wants it - but it really doesn't matter whether or not humanity wants my help or not, I am here to help them.


    Over all, my opinion of myself is that I don't have much of an opinion on myself except through my own personal studies and researching of whatever I like. I am a growing fire of life - and it is up to me to bring that fire to the world. Think of my as Prometheus.


     




       


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  • Job Searching and a New Life...

    I am so frustrated these days...I need to find a job fast, and a freaking job SOON.


    Just first though - have to make sure that my old high school gets a little reality check. No details mentioned. Classified.


    Anyhow - tomorrow would be a fun day...in like 41 minutes.


    I look forward to making my own money, and eventually fulfilling all my other dreams and hopes.


    This is a relatively short entry as I don't have much to say except I do have some private thoughts...but I'll just leave that for a personal or protected entry.


    Classified, I am a afraid.


     


    Yours, in peace


     


    XINYU HU


     


     

  • PAINT THE ELEMENTS...

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     These are the paint files that I drew today. It is my best art works to date...


    Enjoy.


    Yours, sincerely


     


     


     


    XINYU HU